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So, I finally made it to my careers psychologist appointment. Becoming a sexologist is my dream, my passion and ultimately the goal of my life.

A combined social work and psych degree is a big, long and scary thing to approach. By the time I do the year of Sexology on top, at the end of that, it’s like 8 or 9 years of school. I’m not sure if it is the best course of action for me, really need to think further and check in with my friend who is currently working for an organisation as a sex educator.

My head feels so full of stuff right now, it’s a little overwhelming and I’m looking forward to my partner being back home, to talk to this week.

If I can be employed as a sex educator in schools and in the community at large, with a social work degree, I am thinking I will go ahead with that. Once I have my social work degree it would greatly reduce the time of a psych degree and I can pursue that second degree perhaps a little later in life, or possibly part time whilst working as well.

Although a part of me thinks I am reluctant to take on the duel degree because I am scared. I am scared of failing of being too overwhelmed of taking too much on and this whole thing is really full on general.

As I said, lots to think about.

The longest, most languid and delerious session of play…

Tongues probing, fingers stroking, moans escaping, toys buzzing, his grunts and our waves of pleasure.

No one to have to be quiet for, nothing to have to get up for in the morning, not a thing standing in the way of enjoying each other and indulging in the kinks and delicious perversions we are seldom free and able to fully explore.

Allowing myself to fully submit to him, submit like I’ve really wanted to, submit like I goddamn well love to deep down, but hesitate, because, well… we all have some inhabitions.

He is touching me with both hands, hovering over me and laying kisses softly on my face, neck and breasts.  His coarse facial hair ever so slightly rubbing on my skin.  I am shuddering involuntarily in absolute pleasure… the sweetest kind of sensory overload.

His face moves down to my pussy, a soft, long lick over my clit and if I didn’t before, I now fully belong to him, to the sensation he is creating.  His fingers are still inside me, but his other hand slick with my wetness has moved lower.  He is stroking and gently probing the entrance to my ass and it feels absolutely phenomonal.

1 finger easily slides inside me and I lose it, everything feels so good, almost too good and I can hear my cries and the cheap vinyl couch underneath me as I writhe.

It would easily have been an hour of this calibre of play, the only breaks when I ask him to stop and fuck my face.  I remember distinctly that his pubic hair smelt wonderful in my face… like clean linen or something equally wholesome and nice.  I know I have one of my bigger butt toys inside me and have at one point been penetrated annally with 2 fingers not only comfortably but extremely pleasurably when I decide I want him to fuck me there.

I stop the proceedings to ask in my politest voice if he would be so kind and giving as to put his cock inside my ass, please.

We make ourselves even more slippery with pjur and take our time to ease him inside me.  I am on all fours and holding a vibe up against my clit.  He slides, slowly, gradually inside me and it feels incredible.  He gently thrusts inside me, back and forth, constantly checking in with me, asking if I feel good and rubbing his hands down my sides, brushing the sides of my breasts and over my buttocks.

I know I’m making a hell of a lot of noise at this point, but I just don’t care, I feel so good and so overwhelmed with sensation.  Our gentle anal sex soon becomes progressively nastier as I am more and more comfortable.  I tell him to grab my hair.

At no point did I feel pain, but there was a very ‘stretched’ sort of feeling going on and I knew that it meant we had to be gentle or discomfort would most definitely follow.  We just took our time though and actually had a little rest break part way through, we were both sweating like mad.

This, my first anal sex experience, was so thoroughly enjoyable I am so happy I slowly and deliberately experimented and then gradually worked towards full penetrative sex.  I have learnt so much about my body and it’s response to anal stimulation in many forms, I felt comfortable and at ease… okay no, I was downright eager for the actual sex by the time the act itself occured.  It is also a testament to the awesomeness and openess in my relationship.  I am with the most beautiful, sensual, gentle man that I love and trust so freaking much the force of this feeling frightens me sometimes.

So in conclusion: first time butt seks FTW!

has finally been accomplished.

Verdict: WIN!

I’m so glad anal is something I have explored and worked towards gradually, hand in hand with a patient, gentle and loving partner.  Through self play and experimentation in partnered sex, this part of my body has responded more and more positively and urgently to stimulation.

The energy I have devoted towards learning about my butt and it’s capabilities has absolutely paid off, even without this most recent actual-penis-penetration.  The fact that I now have a extra bit of me that feels exceptionally pleasurable to the touch is reward in itself for stepping outside my comfort zone.

And this all has been completely outside what is safe and familiar for me…  As it is I do have hangups about cleanliness, smells and tastes etc, that on occasion interfere with the good, dirty fun I like to have.  So the participation in sexy stuff to do with my ass has kind of forced to get over a lot of that, just deal with it and not obsess.  This is a very, very good thing.

I’m writing about the actual experience seperately, I think the evening I had was pretty damn special and deserves it’s own post.

This will occur shortly.

When desiring to make glistening puddles on the floor:

Combine 1 rabbit with plenty of pjur, fuck yourself until frothy, remove toy at point of orgasm and let the moisture gush down your thighs, over your computer seat* and onto the ground.

*Please note it might take a whole day of your computer chair being infront of the heater til it dries back out.

Soooo.  My ass obsession continues (as you may have noticed…)

My guy is totally in on it too.  First time in my life I think I have ever trusted *anyone* to put *anything* in my butt.  I think a lot of why I can trust him is because when I told him about liking my ass being touched and possibly penetrated he also liked it, but did not go all rabid/slavering and start begging me to let him “put it in there”.

Ongoing ass play is a first for both of us, it’s something we’re exploring together and seemingly we both get off on it quite a lot.

The whole notion of butt seks is such an epic turn on.  Although it’s a relatively recent development, it’s really only been about a year and a half that this particular act has held any allure for me.  I used to be a strictly my butt = exit-not-an-entry kind of gal.

Although I think with age, comes maturity and with maturity comes the ability to rationalise that a hell of a lot of women have anal sex and really enjoy it and thus maybe, just maybe, I can give it a bash.  Also in my line of work I see a fair amount of footage (read: a metric fuck tonne) of women masturbating and for some women anal play is a regular part of their wanking repertoire.

Me and the guy are dutifully working towards him being able to fuck me in the ass, it’s now also a topic that has become part of the dirty talk we sometimes do during the nastier of our shags.  It’s hot, I love it and whilst I honestly think I want it a bit more than my partner, it’s so exciting to be exploring something new and unknown in regards to my body, the sex I have and how I masturbate.

I’ve been able to tick 1 thing off my sexual goals list not so long ago, am feeling motivated to make it 2.

Wish me luck 🙂

I finally fucking did it.

In the almost-daylight early hours of Sunday morning, having not slept and winding down from party-time me and the boy crawled into bed for some lovin’.  This had been drawn out over an afternoon and evening of trashiness at a friend’s birthday party.  At one stage he and I snuck out to the car and had a mutual feel up and love-in session.  So many wonderful chats, a few confessions and a whole lot of mutual love going on…  Telling each other why we love each other, the things we each do that turn us on so much, how we are so dementedly happy it’s obscene – you get the idea.

We had both been wanting each other so badly, for so long, by the time I was laid back on the pillows, having shed my clothing, his hands were on my pussy and I was dripping wet.  He kissed me on my mouth, on my breasts, my tummy and my thighs and had a bright light in his eyes every time he looked up at me.  I don’t know if I have ever felt this amount of love for another human being in all of my life.  Our arousal, our love and our bodies connected took me to a place I can only describe as higher sex.

He ate my pussy for such a long time, I moaned and thrashed and just totally lost myself in pleasure and sensation.  I asked for him to put his hands inside me, he complied and as my pleasure grew and grew I needed more and more fingers.  Partway through he had 4 fingers inside me, whilst mentally this was hot, it was a tight fit and he wasn’t able to rub me inside the way I wanted and he went back to 2, at this point I was about ready to explode…  I was rubbing my clit furiously, which had become fucking huge and the rough rubs over my engorged clitorus and his fingers fucking me felt so incredibly good.  I wanted to feel a big, full, dirty orgasm and decided to add my new butt toy to the mix.

It is by far the largest thing that has ever gone in my ass and after lubing it up, he slid it into me so easily I began to consider asking him to fuck my ass.  I was pondering this idea, running this little fantasy over in my mind with a blue bumpy silicone toy in my ass, his fingers in my pussy and my hand roughly rubbing over my clit.

I came all over.  It is the only way I can describe the orgasm.  It was intense, but not too much so, no involuntary jerking, flailing or twitching just big, beautiful rolls of orgasm sweeping down and through me.  I think I came for quite a bit longer than I usually do.  As I came I pushed the butt toy out of me, but as is our mutually enjoyable preference he kept his fingers in me as I came and in my afterglow he slowly slid them out to taste me.

He was kneeling on all fours over me and kissing me when I realised I felt a pent up fluid feeling in my vagina.  I knew that if I could make myself come again I would be able to expel that fluid.  So I began rubbing down my clit, rhythmically rubbing over and over, the feeling of pent up fluid grew and grew, there were a few times when this feeling was ‘i need to pee-like’  but on the whole it was intensely pleasurable.  He was still hovering over me, I was lightly grasping his forearm.

I believe this wank was somewhat short and when I did come I ejaculated.  I squirted a whole fuck load of fluid out of me.

He exclaimed and dropped back to watch, I kept rubbing my clit and would let the fluid build up and with a squeeze I’d squirt again and holy fucking shit every time I expelled ejaculate it felt like a big squelchy orgasm.  I kept going, rubbing my clit and touching the fluid coming out of me, rubbing it over my clit and squirting more.  He was lowering his face to my pussy and I was squirting on his face, he opened his mouth and ate my cum.

Every time I thought I had nothing left to squirt, I would be able to keep on going.

He wanted to fuck, so we pulled off his clothes and he lay back.  I straddled him and slid his cock inside me and I fucked him with total abandon, only stopping when I once again orgasmed and ejaculated all over his cock, my fluid pooling on his belly.  I squirted multiple times on him, before switching to being on all fours with him fucking me from behind.  I asked him to come in me, he fucked me harder and faster til he came, I promptly orgasmed again and squirted his and my cum all over him and my bed.

I sat up on my knees and rubbing my clit pushed big, wet drops out of me and down onto my bed.  It sounded like rain on my taunt bedsheets.

After this I lay down exhausted, finally spent of all my liquid.

I could of cried I felt so fucking happy.

Me and my boy lay in my big puddle and held each other.

On Sunday night I achieved an orgasm lying on my tummy.  10 points awarded to me for excellentness!

This is the first time I have ever been able to come in this position!  I often masturbate on my stomach because it feels good, but I can wank for as long as I like because I generally can’t come like that.

Albeit, this particular orgasm was somewhat assisted…

After a lazy day of reading, eating and several rounds of sexual adventure with my man, I settled in to watch porn on my laptop and drink vodka.  I was lying on my tummy on his bed, laptop in front of me and egg vibe in my trousers.  For some period of time I enjoyed working myself into a lather, watching vids, exploring kink.com a bit and going back to touching myself.

There was an offer of assitance that I gladly accepted.  He had been playing with my ass throughout the day, teasing me, but there was no penetration as his index fingernail was quite sharp.  Nails had now been trimmed and the sensation and desire to be penetrated had been building all day.  Whilst I was furiously grinding down on my egg vibe, a slippery warm finger was inserted into me.  Slowly and gently and I swear to Babs nothing going into my butt has ever felt that good before.  It was the most pleasurable and phenomonal feeling.

I’m pretty sure I was a gibbering mess by then, I do know that by that point I was fully naked and being quite demanding.  I wanted more fingers in more places.

I reached my absolute pinnacle with 3 fingers in my pussy, 1 in my ass and a egg vibe, turned up all the way, on my clit.

One long, large, glorious orgasm was had.  My hips were bucking down into the bed involuntarily and so I ended up a little closer to the bedhead than when I started but no injuries thankfully.

Tummy orgasm ftw.

I want to do these things:

  1. Be able to ejaculate – I want this more than anything
  2. Lose my anal viginity relatively comfortably
  3. Pay for sex, I want to sleep with a female prostitute
  4. Experience double penetration (2 penises)
  5. Have a MFF threesome (already have, but want to do it again)
  6. Start to experiment with spanking/bondage

So after being super slack in my pursuit of being comfortably f-ed in the a for a whiles now, with the end goal of losing my butt virginity properly (by this I mean an actual penis) with minimal pain, I started my ‘training’ again last night.

What does training consist of you ask?

Well everytime I masturbate (which is pretty frequently) I incorperate some form of anal play.  Whether this involves actual penetration or not isn’t so important, as sexualising the act is, which is what I’m trying to do basically.  Gotta get my brain on board for this to be able to happen.

Last night I was able to penetrate myself with the slimmest vibe I have – bought specifically for the task.  It was a bit touch and go, but it slid in comfortably eventually, I had a good strong orgasm so I’m feeling pretty encouraged.

Now to work myself up the next size vibe I have and then get something bigger again.  Once I have that biggest size down it will be time to ask someone I trust to actually have anal sex.

I’m pretty excited.  It’s one of my ‘sexual goals’ for 09.

I should do a post about those hey…?  Next time gadget 😉

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